Sunday, March 27, 2011

Finding a Balance (Part 2)

My last post I laid bare my current struggles with being an artist in a hurting world. Today I continue with part two: my struggles with being a Christian, specifically in America.

As Christians, we are called to be set apart. But we are not called to be separate, if that makes any sense. We are not to just live our selfish lives, ignoring the cries for help from our surroundings. 

We get comfortable. We are American. We get caught up in the materialistic mania that has captured the minds of our society.

I'm not saying there is anything wrong with wanting nice things. I'm not saying there is anything wrong with having nice things. But that shouldn't be our focus.
A couple of weeks ago, in conversation with a few friends, the topic of money came up. We were discussing what we would do if we suddenly got a lot of money. I couldn't think of anything...other than paying off my loans. But instantly, one person starting listing off all this stuff that he would get, and suggesting things for me to buy for myself.
I feel like that's a pretty common inclination. We want to spend our money.
I don't remember what all was in the list, but it was stuff like a new computer, an ipod, a new phone...
I mean, I would love to have those things. I would love to have an ipod. Music is a huge part of my life. But I have a radio. I have cds. I have Pandora. I don't need anything else. I have a laptop. It's really old and slow, but it's a laptop. It gets my work done.
Sometimes it amazes me how often people get new things like that. How many people really need a droid or an iphone? How do you justify paying for an extra data plan and internet, that you could get along just fine without, when you know that money could be used to benefit someone else's life?

Again, I'm not saying there is anything wrong with having these things. I'm just asking, where is the balance?

How can you justify buying all your clothes from expensive stores when you could just as easily buy used clothes for more than half the price, when you know there are people in the world who don't have the money to buy a coat for the winter?
How can you justify having a closet full of shoes (most of which you hardly wear) when you know there are people who go barefoot every day of their life?
And sure, there are organizations, like TOMS, who donate a pair of shoes when you buy a pair of shoes...but their shoes cost $45-$80 ($100 if you get a pair of boots) and they give one child one pair of shoes. I have to wonder, how much does it cost them to do that? How expensive are they shoes they donate? Could they afford to do more?
And why, in order to be motivated to donate something, do we feel like we have to get something in return? Instead of buying a $50 pair of shoes for ourselves (that we, quite frankly, probably don't really need) and hoping that some little kid will at least have something on his feet, why don't we just buy several pairs of shoes for $50 and donate them?
We do things like benefit auctions, and not that they are at all a bad thing, why do we have to see something we want in order to be willing to have that money go toward getting women out of the sex trade? Why can't we just see that there is a need and give?

Why do we always have to get something to give something?

Of course, I'm not saying that everyone is like this. I know people that freely give time and money to those in need and I admire those people more than I can say.
But is that the Christian majority in America?

What would happen, do you think, if every person in America who claimed to be a Christian decided to get passionate about a cause? If we stopped being comfortable with our lives? Stopped ignoring the starving, dying, hurting people in the world? Stopped spending 90% of our money on ourselves?
What if we started to truly and actively love?

I don't want to be complacent in a middle-class, small church, midwest American life. I want to change the world.

Monday, March 14, 2011

Finding a Balance (Part 1)

I am an artist.
But I'm so much more than just an artist.
Something I've been struggling with lately is balance. Not the typical balancing struggles of a college student (studying vs. hanging out with friends, etc), but a heart-wrenching, can't sleep at night kind of struggle.
There are people in the world that are dying. Dying because they don't have food. Because they don't have basic medical care. Dying because they don't have clean water.
People are dying because they have no hope.
And what am I doing with my life?

I'm getting a degree for a profession that at times seems frivolous and unimportant. Not that I don't love theatre. Not that I don't think it's worth my time. But when I think about it, when I really think about it...
We spend our time and money on the material.
I spend hours every day making clothing that will be worn for one week...and then put on a hanger and tucked away out of sight and out of most minds, hoping that someday it will be used again.
There are people in this world who don't have shoes. And we have boxes of them. And we complain that we have nothing to put on our actors.
I had a four thousand dollars to spend on Cinderella. I spent four thousand dollars on one show. How many people in this world shiver on the streets in the winter because they don't have coats while my actors waltzed around on stage in my costumes?


We complain of inferior equipment. Always wanting better light fixtures, sewing machines, microphones, table saws, whatever.

There are people in this world that are dying. 

How do you balance loving your art...yet knowing that the amount of money you spend on every show could give water to entire villages?

And not just that. How many resources do we use? How much energy, water, whatever, do we use on one show alone? One night of one show? We in America make up so little of the world's population, yet we use more than we deserve.
How much does what we do in theatre affect that?
Are we being good stewards?

I know I'm a theatre snob. When I go to see a show, I judge the quality. I have standards. And my heart is filled with joy and excitement when I see a show that I can admire.

I'm not saying that theatre can't be used to benefit others. I am a firm believer that it can be one of the greatest tools a follower of Christ can have. Theatre has a way of touching people that nothing else can match. It can make people think and feel. I'm part of a drama ministry, I've seen how people have been affected by the message we present.

Theatre gives life in a different way.

What I'm saying is, how do you balance?
How do you justify spending as much time and money on a single show as you do, when the show could very likely be just as effective with a much smaller budget?

How do you balance loving your art with the way your heart feels like it's being wrenched out of you when you think of the quality of life of people in developing countries?

How do you balance?

Note: I am going to be doing a series of posts on similar subjects. Please ponder and comment if you read them. I really do want feedback.